This week I’m linking up with other bloggers for One Word Wednesday. The words this week are Voices and Fast. Both words have so much relevance in my life these days.
Raising children is LOUD and HIGH SPEED. They MOVE and TALK incessantly. From the moment they wake up, they CHATTER and CLIMB, until they WIGGLE and GIGGLE until they finally fall asleep. Those are my days lately. The house is filled with little VOICES. Sometimes screeching, griping, or arguing voices. Other times loving, kind, and helpful voices. While in some ways the hours in the day drag on, the time is passing so FAST. My children have outgrown most of the clothes we brought with us when we returned Stateside (it will be interesting to see what is actually still usable that has been in storage for the past seven months). During the week, I take for granted all the time I have with them. My husband has only seen them on weekends recently (this is the last week for that!) and he sees how much they are learning even in that amount of time because he’s not interacting with them every day.
Several times a day I say, “Turn the volume DOWN.” Slow DOWN.” “Be STILL.” Or some other variation of the same thing. I usually ask nicely the first time, but when it seems I’m being ignored or deliberately disobeyed, I have difficulty remaining on a level decibel. I am often QUICK to YELL and my patience runs out easily these days. Maybe it’s the seven months in transition. Maybe it’s the separation during the week. Maybe it’s part of my personality. Maybe I’m just a tired mom and it’s some of all the above. These circumstances do not excuse my actions. I wouldn’t let my children make excuses for bad choices, so I have to be responsible too.
As I power through this challenging time, these words from the book of James give me a goal. James 1:19 says, “My dear brothers and sisters, take note of this: Everyone should be quick to listen, slow to speak and slow to become angry.” I know I won’t do it perfectly or achieve this task overnight.